Wisdom and Pain

This morning, my alarm was set for 4:30 so I could get ready and get to the gym at 6, like I'm supposed to every morning. Slept through that. Whatever, I got over it and got up at 7:30. (I realized I am no longer able to sleep while the sun is up. GREAT.) I decided to try this new pre-workout I ordered and spent 10 dollars on. (Its a trial size, so I think that's sort of expensive...LOL). DISGUSTING. I couldn't even finish it. Since I couldn't finish that, I get to the gym and have the absolute HARDEST time getting through my workout.

No, I am not dependent on pre-workout to get me through my workouts, but I am still sick as a dog. I seriously have coughing attacks in the middle of a set and people look at me like I'm stupid. I know half of you reading this will not relate, but I just have to explain what I mean. I was doing my upper body circuit today, and in between each set, I usually do 5 minutes of cardio. I cut that out because I can't breathe because there's shit in my lungs. I usually only have a 'light' day once every 3 or 4 workouts...like, I do upper body twice a week, so I'd only have a light day once every 2 weeks or so. NO, I've had 2 light weeks in a row. I'm dying. Seriously, I almost died curling 40 today. WTH. Okay, so if anyone other than Keely or Morgan is reading this, just ignore that. HAHAHA

I don't like to brag, but man...my teeth are so straight. I've never had braces or anything. I went to the oral surgeon about two years ago to have her look at my wisdom teeth. She said I only had three...well, my last one is just now coming in. And its coming in crooked. SERIOUSLY? Of all 340581307 teeth I have, my last wisdom tooth comes in the side of my freaking mouth. I feel like a toddler teething. Its awful...I now feel the pain of crying toddlers carrying their little chewy rings around.

Okay, I am done now. Going to watch Jane by Design that I missed Tuesday and hopefully find something else relaxing to do since I don't have to work. :)

- Katie



So, I was on Pinterest earlier when I found a picture of a 'fat chick'. I read the caption and wanted to know why someone would post this...I mean surely they weren't happy about this. (She was like, a 300 pound girl!)

Well, I went to the blog it was connected to, Fat From the Side. I started looking around and realized it was an appreciation blog for all these girls who are really fat. Cool - if you wanna appreciate your body...but there's NO way they are appreciating a healthy body. Personally, I think this type of thing is just sending the wrong message to girls. NOT that the people saying people should be stick thin are right either, but I think this is out of control.

I am still not where I want to be, and I won't be for a while, but at least I know how to make myself healthy. Sure, I want to be thin, but if my body decides it only wants to be as small as a 6 and I am living a healthy lifestyle, I will be okay. At least I'm not shoving my face with cupcakes and ice cream 10 times a day. I've seen both sides of this whole weight ordeal. I know what its like to be fat, unhealthy, and ashamed, I know it all. I know now, what its like to turn down cake after dinner, and how it feels to fit into those really cute pants I've always wanted. I know I'm not an expert, but geez - I can't be the only person who thinks its absolutely ridiculous to tell girls that being a damn hot air balloon is okay!

The only reason I even thought about posting this was because a girl left a rude comment on my pin after I repinned it with the caption "this blog is disturbing". I didn't like what she had to say, and I deleted it...whoops - thought about it afterwards. :P I did delete the pin, because I kind of felt bad afterwards, but this is my redemption.

STOP EATING SHIT. Go to the gym. Appreciate your body, yes...but also realize your body is a temple. God did NOT give you something so precious to just ruin. Don't chop 20 years off of your life because you decided you wanted to have 3 more hotdogs and 4 servings of fries.

I almost feel bad about posting this, because I read the captions and a lot of the girls on there have gone through so much with hating their body and all...and 'this is their chance to admire themselves and appreciate themselves'...but I just can't help saying that they shouldn't be admiring that. They should treat themselves right.

- Katie



Weight loss problem number ONE: chocolate.

Reese's, kisses, milky ways, snickers, m&m's, chocolate hearts, twix, kit kats...oh my gosh. The list could go on and on. I just wish I could eat it all. Its so hard to say no to that wonderful bag of mixed chocolate just sitting on the dining room table. Sometimes I don't though, I grab a couple pieces and go about my day... ;)

We won't mention the sickness afterwards.

I've already posted a video telling you what I eat. You know I don't eat crap (well, other than that frieken chocolate) so don't expect there to be a quick fix. Sure, I've lost about 20 pounds in a month and a half...and that's PROBABLY not safe, but I'm doing it the right way. I don't know what else to say...I'm working out EVERY DAY. Except for that frieken rest day we just had to throw in.

Its not easy. Sometimes, I want to give up in the middle of the second set, but I don't. You can't, if you want to be healthy and look your best. Like they always say "You can't get rid of the body you've always had by doing what you've always done". Or whatever the hell is it...I'm sure that's close enough. :)

ANYWAYS, my point is...I don't care if you ask questions, but please...PLEASE do not message me asking what I eat (I already posted a video), how often I work out (you see my posts about always going to the gym), or if there's a special pill that I take (all I take are vitamins, and pre-workouts!). I even got a message one time where someone didn't even ask a question...they just talked. About nothing. I didn't know what to do. I'm a little awkward, so don't do that shit to me. LOL

I think I'm gonna go eat a chocolate heart.

- Katie